ohyes. fuck every single thing.

I give up. I don't want to try. I don't want to talk. I want you and everyone else to get away from me. you understand what's get away, don't you? yeah.

Get the hell away from me please.

I want to be alone. I don't want comfort. I don't want sympathy. I rather spend a useless day alone than be tortured with the presence of you. sometimes there's sarcasm. I don't know why. it really hurts but maybe I just say really stupid things. I hate the gap. I hate the awkward silent moments. I promised myself I'd do something after the exams but I've decided not to. you don't listen. you look away. you don't really care, do you? I don't really feel like caring anymore either.

i literally screwed up my exams. all of them so far. i know i sound like i'm exaggerating. i'm not.

english composition. it went terribly out of point.

chinese composition. i had no clue to what they were saying.

social studies. i studied the hardest for that LAST question and i didnt quite get the chance to complete it. as usual.

why is everything going in the wrong direction.

what the hell am i doing.

what have i been doing the whole year.

why cant i get anything right.

i'm gonna disappoint everyone. especially my mom. i'm sorry.

but it isnt too late, is it?

it is.

you know maybe if i'm gonna waste my life away i'd just be better off doing stuff that...

oh just fuck everything.

i looked for a shoulder ;

and found NONE.

huh. none at all.

not even you or you could fit that place.

i miss the long practical all-about-life talks with krystle.

i miss krystle loads.